((maara))

I know that what your mom did to you was wrong and very hurtful by her abandoning you. I am assuming that your mom has struggled with her own emotional problems and sometimes parents think that they are protecting their children by leaving them or by withholding emotions or feelings from them but that is not really protecting the children. It is downright heartbreaking. It sounds like your mom is making an effort to make up for her actions. I do not know if they are genuine but at least she is trying. I am glad that you are in therapy.

My mom was an alcoholic and she neglected and abused me. It took me many years to forgive my mom but I finally did. She is not alive and I am glad that I forgave her as she was neglected as well. It seems that these wounds are generational. Maybe not now but there is hope that in the future you will be able to realize that she does love you but she just does not know how to show it. That was my mom's case. She did love me but she had no way of showing it. I had to accept that and when I did, I was released from the pain. I hope that you will be able to see that she does love you but she has no idea how to show that to you. I wish you the very best.