Hi,

I don't think I'm really crazy but sometimes I act like I am. I don't control my feelings, my anger. I scream at people I love for no good reason. I throw stuff around.
I constantly doubt my 1year &1/2 boyfriend. I constantly doubt myself and after I have one of my anger crisis people ask me if I'm crazy. I think I may be. I feel so unstable in my emotions. I can jump from laughing to crying and crying to laughing at any moment.
I feel like I live for my boyfriend's attention. I don't feel like myself lately. And it was the same with my ex who was my 1st boyfriend for 4 years 1/2. I know this isn't a real problem and that other people have real problems and struggles in their lives and thinking of that makes me hate myself even more. I just want to get my life together and not depend on anyone's constant attention to validate who I am. And I need to do that now and be over with this bipolarity.

I'm scared of talking to someone and I feel I need help. What do I do? How can I get out of this cycle