Hello. I have terrible feelings about something I did over a year ago. I was a bit drunk, browsing an adult webcam chat-room. This is a place where it connects you to someone randomly and where most people are, well, masturbating men. Two girls came up, they looked a bit young and I asked their age. They said they were 18 and I started suggesting stuff to them. My retarded logic was that they could disconnect at any point if they didn't like it. Well it ended up to me asking whether they wanted to see uhum, my privates, to which they replied "OF COURSE". So I started stripping and then they disconnected. My self-respect was pretty down at the time due to a painful scoliosis in my back.

Immediately afterwards the shame hit me. Why the hell had I done this, what if they were younger then 18, why did I act like this? It's been almost two years since this happened (I was 22 at the time), but I think about it on a daily basis. I compare some teenagers I see on the streets to the image I have in my mind and ultimately this just makes me more anxious. I've been diagnosed with OCD and I have a hard time if this amount of shame is justified or if it's more about me being extremely anxious about it, exaggerating the thing in my mind. I mean I know I acted badly, but I don't know if the shame is proportionate to the actual thing.

To be honest, I'm terrified of how people will react to this...