Hi Daisydoll29,
I'm not sure if my dx is depressive type but it's been my experience that I've had far fewer hypomanic episodes than depression. I'm quite isolated... I have overwhelming fatigue and have trouble with motivation... I tend to be socially withdrawn. My pdoc believes these are examples of the so-called "negative" symptoms of schizophrenia.
I only have the sensitivity to noise and so on when I'm off the Seroquel. My delusions include the belief that I have psychic powers to send thoughts out and that some people are able to hear my thoughts, read my mind, as it were. I also constantly feel that I am causing bad things to happen out in the world -- for instance, that something I thought or did caused someone to get hurt. It's a burden to carry these feelings around with me all the time.
I had auditory hallucinations only when I wasn't medicated. However, I often feel that a song played on the radio or some reference made in a show or movie relates to me personally (also that certain radio announcers can read my mind and hear my thoughts). Sometimes I feel that things I hear contain some kind of subtext -- messages for me to interpret.
I have not been able to work since 2007, though my record was pretty spotty long before then. The onset of my illness began when I was in my third year of a PhD program in Education. Before that I had gotten my M.A. and taught at a university for three years. Suddenly, in late 1992, everything changed for me... the illness took away my life, really. I often have doubts that my condition will improve, considering that I'm on max dosage of Seroquel (it's been going up steadily) and other AP's haven't worked well for me.
Still... hope springs eternal. I do feel that my life could get better and that my illness can be controlled... eventually. I hope the same for you. :-)
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