There's gotta be an on and off switch....how do you turn this thing off? What in the hell turned it on, if I can figure that out, then perhaps I can turn it off. I can't afford new clothes or shoes, feet swollen really bad. I tried discipline, buying healthy snacks (it cost too much) and eating from a smaller plate. My last visit to doc, said my blood pressure was 185/74 and my BMI was 38.8%. I am obese. People wont tell me the truth, everyone says I look fine, that it doesn't look like I have gained that much weight, I know they are fibbing, but what I don't know is why do they lie to me. My mixed emotions/personality probably has something to do with it I'm sure.

I started my morning with a cup of coffee, 2 slices of toast with light butter and jelly, small banana and apple juice. I know, I needed some protein as well. I am hungry as heck. I am at work and praying that I don't go to vending machine. I have left money at home, but that doesn't mean I can't borrow a buck or two.