I suffer from Haphephobia. I hate touching people or getting touched by. I stay away from society and havent met any of my family since 15-16 years. I live in isolation. Will I die alone?

I cant imagine anyone loving me or touching me. I have never experienced love or any form of physical intimacy. Im 27 and I think I need to come to terms with living alone and sad.
If someone looks at me (coz im good looking) I just hyperventilate. I have such self hatred that even in my dreams I cant imagine or dont dare to imagine someone might like me.

BTW no one has ever approached me for friendship anyways so that doesnt help my self hatred.