Every night after about 6pm I feel like I become more emotional. I become more sad, upset and tired.
I don't even get up out of bed until about 9am, so I don't know why I get like that.
The arguments with my S.O. are always at night. The feelings of self-loathing and inability to handle anything emotional is at night.
It has gotten so bad that I am at the stage where every time I say something I have to add "I feel like this NOW, at this very second. I may not feel this way in an hour or in a day, but..."
This is frustrating for my S.O. because my thoughts and feelings on subjects change so drastically from one hour/day to the next.

I wonder if anyone else is this way. I mean, it's not like any of my others come out. It is still me, I just know that they impose their thoughts and feelings at times too.

When I take the Ambien (sleeping pills) I get worse. I forget things really badly. I forget what I ate or said or even if I make love to my S.O.
I have tried not taking it, but then I can't sleep.

UGH, sorry...I'm rambling a bit.

I just would like to know if I am alone in feeling like I have different emotional states throughout the day.