I made an appointment with my GP, just to talk to her. She has been my doctor for four years and has a general understanding of how I used to be. She has never seen a need to medicate me again, but I told her I just want to tell her some of the things happening. The office has a psychiatrist that they work with and refer people to (I do not have a psychiatrist where I live, have not seen/talked to a counselor in four years). She will refer me if she feels I need help other than perhaps a prescription she can write for me.

My exact words to my husband:
"I decided to see someone. But I won't just medicate myself so you can deal with my sad times or quiet times. I love you, but I am being rational and have no other symptoms of it (bipolar) being out of control."