Hi, Spring...
I think you are finding yourself anxious and depressed because the man is playing mindgames with you.
I've been there totally, and thought it was all ME, my fault, I was too anxious, depressed and insecure, and then only after time away from it, healing, distance, did I realize how deficient the relationship was in mutual respect, love and understanding.
My sister told me once, when I was in the throes of this kind of thing, all anxious and depressed from a bad treatment, ups and downs, etc., that "love should be comforting to you, make you feel safe, not insecure and anxiojus.
Also, I just want to add ..... from reading your posts, etc., that YOU seem right on target, know what you need, and are a strong, smart woman.
Love
Patty