Hi Fuzzy, sounds like things are real hard for you
And it's OK to hate it (completely understandable!!), but you know in a way that can be good as well.........shows that you're still protesting against it/wanting more, maybe use that to keep the fight going/to keep pushing through. Because we know you're strong!!!
It may not feel like you're winning right now, but that doesn't mean to say that you can't get there. With the right help, with the right support............and we're here for you

Alison