Maara, i think i understand what you are saying. I once told my mother that i didnt even understand why she invited me for birthdays and holidays. She and my brother make all the decisions, then they call me. She said, "we dont want you to feel left out." Well - that opened my eyes. I already WAS left out. From a long time ago. Anyway, it felt good to finally know or have it acknowledged that that was where i stood - outside! At least you can understand why its cold outside - but if its cold inside, its just confusing.