(((DC))) I don't think you have to come to terms with living alone and sad. Find ways to push yourself a little at a time. Say hi to someone and run if you have to but at least it's something. Baby steps of faith can get you headed in the right direction. Just posting this shows that you have the potential to break out of your self imposed prison. Were not meant to live imprisoned in our fears. Were not meant to be alone. Please don't give up on you!