I see my therapist tomorrow weekly. she never talks about what I want to talk about. I am beginning have recurring violent thoughts. I am trying to move out of my group home but AM worried that if I tell my therapist what's going on she will tell my psychiatrist and he will want to hospitalize me for wanting to act on my violent thoughts. which I do want to. if I am hospitalized it will be harder to move and I am NOT the only one waiting on this move so I can't be selfish. I have been having hallucinations which are getting worse. I'm not sure what I should do. everyone wants to talk about the move at therapy and even my caseworker afterwards but I don't want to. I'm just afraid of being hospitalized because I have been told that with two hospitalizations in the past 6 months under my belt I could possibly go to state hospital and I don't want that. I'm just so frustrated and upset to the point that I am getting chest pains and my cardiologist said it was anxiety attacks so now this is affecting me physically. I can't even sleep anymore.