I am suicidal. I am feeling particularly hopeless at the moment which is likely driving this post. I asked my husband to take over my meds. I didn't want to but I know I needed to (he hasn't done it yet and he isn't home much lately because he is working much of the time...the option is just sitting there). My doctor asked me if I needed to be hospitalized as did my husband. My answer to both was no, like it always is. I always have to be TOLD to go to the hospital either by my family or by strong convincing from my doctor. I would never suggest or agree to it. I have way too much responsibility and too many serious childcare issues to willingly spend a week or two inpatient. I feel weary (mostly of being in this spot SO many times) and overwhelmed. Do I need to go in? Can I justify going in? Can I justify not going in? I don't know what to do.