I really don't want my mother involved because I don't want to stop at the moment. I'm fine with my coping skill and I don't care that others see it as bad.

My mother, while she is a very good one and I am blessed to have her, doesn't understand much about mental health. I honestly want her to not be a part of my mental health problems whatsoever.

I was truthful about my level of suicidal thoughts and while they have risen, it isn't that bad. But the catch is she only talked about my self harm and was concerned about that. She dropped suicidal thoughts topic very quickly.

I've been seeing her sporadically since February but her scheduling has been terrible. I'm finally seeing her weekly with today being my second session weekly. I didn't even get to see her until after 3-4 weeks of being out of the hospital, which is crazy to me.

I don't think I'm unraveling personally, but I tend to be in denial about a lot of things. This time I think I'm alright though.

She doesn't know me too well, but I did tell her that while I will not bring up a tough topic, any question she asks I will be as honest as I can.