Healed, you've been talking about IP for a few days now. Perhaps it is time to go in where you can be safe and they can get you stabilized. Your T isn't telling you to snap out of it. He's saying that the ideations do not seem to be subsiding in any way and he feels you could become a danger to yourself. You are agitated and withdrawing. Not good signs. He isn't threatening you; he is telling you that you are getting to the point where IP may be what has to happen to keep you safe. Rather than censor yourself, how about being honest with yourself that it is time to be where you are safe and can get more intensive treatment.