I stopped posting on this site shortly before my 17 month old was born. After adopting my son, life got very busy. I quickly and easily fell in love with my new role of mom and although I occasionally struggled with depression/anxiety, it was very manageable and short lived. At least that was the case up until a week ago. Now, the depression and anxiety are getting harder and harder to deal with. This is the first real major depressive episode I've had since my son was born and I'm so thankful that I have him. He is the only thing keeping me going right now.

I should also mention that my hubby and I are thinking about adopting 2 kids from foster care (11 year old and 8 year old). We have been considering this for 3 months and have met the kids. I fell in love with them but my hubby wants a little more time to decide, so we are having them over again soon. I'm feeling frustrated because I don't want this depressive episode to possibly interfere with this adoption.

I plan on talking to my dr next week about increasing my Lexapro. My goal is to work closely with my therapist and dr in order to keep the severity of this episode as low as possible. Thanks for letting me vent. It helps to get it out of my head.