I got what I want, I vented, so I don't negatively take it out on others outside. I'm just pointing out despite knowing it won't do anything. I'm tired of the people around me being so ******.

I need to effectively learn not to talk about much of anything, and keep a balance. Not open up too quickly not let my emotions spill and not let anyone get too close or else they'll hate me.

Everyone has before, my own mother ignores me because I'm too different or weird in her words.

I'm recognized for a lot of positive things in my life that's all I got other than that. I stopped caring anymore about anyone. I shouldn't care for friends gf anything, I don't have time and I don't like getting close to people. I'm more emotionally unavailable than my parents and friends. Their pretty bad in their own ways. No one understands me, I'm above their level of thinking and use of grammar. I hate it, I hate dumbing my words down for people who want to only talk about dumb ****.

Every girl I like pisses me off, because of ignorant stuff they do. I hate it when I am minding my own a girl is talking to me and makes all this commotion how she wants to talk to me, I ask her number and she's like I gotta bf, and I don't want to be your bf nor be with you other that I want to talk to you. Or, When girls expect me to be chivalrous because they demand it not that I want to do it and it's more rude on their end.

I'm not mean to girls, I just hate people who do stupid **** and expect me to enjoy it. I gotten so fed up for girls example, I said, "Open your own ****ing door, here's your equality quit *****ing at me." I said that to a coworker, and when another girl got annoyed I'm not oogling over her "beauty" everyone is wasting their time on her instagram or in person.

With guys it's even more annoying, like "I'm so cool cuz I drink and work out all the time to go to parties and sell drugs." like guys who brag and just go on about the same ol ****.

It's made me so hopeless, I hate people their stupid. Nothing wrong with superficial conversation, when you are disrespectful to me or I am to you, just expect push comes to shove. You can do something to me, I can do something to you. I won't hit you, I'll never hit anyone unless they are trying to harm me and hit me first. I hate people here they'll turn on a dime with their dumb junkie selfs strung out in my lobby at mcdonalds. Heroin is very horrible epidemic in my area. We have ods 10 a day in my neighborhood alone. 5 deaths every month, people are ignorant choose to rot themselves out to death.

It's disgusting. I hate people here, girls only want to cling onto men who don't care about them. Move on with having 5 kids and just choose to expect others to pick up after them when they made their own mistakes and choices excluding having kids, but you know my point.

A lot of young people only care about living young and being old too quickly and be boring or destroying their body till they go in a coma or something. You got so many extremes, then the people who have their life together are like me. They don't have time for anything.

I'm happy I do, I know their are nice girls out there and friends that are decent, but it's depressing and boring.

You stop caring because everyone else wants to self destruct around you.

So I'm not mean, I'm keeping a safe distance between me and them.

Read this thoroughly and if anything needs better interpretation tell me. I hope I didn't come off as sexist, because I'm not. Everyone does stupid ****, I get more annoyed with girls more, because a lot of girls do get their stuff together, but mentally they think the world revolves around them like other guys. It's not right or mindful, I jump on guys more who act like that especially my guy friends, but occasionally female friends too.
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