I think you are doing well with how you are taking this ((usehername)), for some reason her life journey ended and it doesn't have to mean something bad. You could very well be right about something beyond our understanding that has called upon her in a way we do not yet understand. I also believe that she is actually now in a place that "knows" she has been a good person and she will be embraced and may be needed in another way.

I honestly feel she is still there for you, just in a different way usehername. You have yourself been blessed because you were loved by such a caring person, you will always have that.

((Caring Hugs))
OE