Fuzzy, you are definitely not a freak.

I have a lot of the same feelings. Just when I think things are getting better the depression comes closing in again. I have anxiety that keeps me from doing things that I would enjoy doing. Just like today, I had a chance to get out of the house and do something with a friend but chose to stay at home where it's safe. I'm lucky, I don't have allergies like you, but it still doesn't make you a freak.

You are a kind and loving bear, that for some reason, beyond my scope of understanding, has to suffer. I hope you find that light that seems elusive. I pray that you find peace in this crazy world. Just know that you are loved.