Yeah. It does confirm that this isn't 100% me. In fact, it's probably mostly her or all her. That helps with my self-esteem? but not so much with emotional pain. After all this, I still love her. Pathetic, I know. I don't think that will ever change. That's who I am. When I love someone, I really do love them. But it hurts. It hurts to know that my T has done this to someone else. This woman who I looked up to and admired. It's disappointing to say the least.