I made it through college and started my career as an Auditor, then 3 yrs later had a baby.
Decided to stay home. I tried to go back for a few weeks because I couldn't handle the stress. Popped out two more babies, then BAM! I went officially crazy. But we kept it all a secret.

I felt like such a good parent with the first two kids and had hope that I could return to my career once they were a little older.

Now I can't even make friends with moms. I have a hard time talking to teachers. I'm a loner mom with kids. I can't handle the stress of conversations with people besides husband and kids without over analyzing and becoming depressed. Therefore, I avoid them. I avoid triggers so I can be a better mom for my kids. I've even talked my husband into moving to the country so I won't have to talk to neighbors either. Who knows what other people think of me since they don't know the truth!

I'm not the outgoing and fun mother I always thought I would be and I doubt I will never be able to hold a job again with my anxiety and depressive tendencies. Too much rides on me avoiding triggers so I that can pretend to be someone without issues! I just have a lot of "migraines."


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