I was a successful nurse/administrator when the fecal matter collided with the rotary ventilation system a few years ago. I too lost it all---my job, my social status, my home---and I know my life will never be the same again. All I can do now is to try to rebuild my life on a smaller scale, because I know I can't handle the stressors inherent in my former occupation. And what I can do mentally, I can't do physically (which is why I applied for SSDI). I am also 56 years old and nobody wants to hire late-middle-aged people these days, let alone someone with the baggage I have. So I keep my expectations low, and try my best to live in peace with what's happened.