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Originally Posted by ragsnfeathers
Scarlet,
I've been thinking about how I care about you and admire you for real and also how, given who I am, what's being posted here, your's and other's posts, is a foreign country to me. I want to stay supportive to you and I think the best way for me to do this right now is to stick with giving you hugs and sending caring your way, but to not try to do more than that, simply because, like I said, what's actually happening is foreign to me. You wrote about an ex boyfriend who had Asperger's and how that didn't mesh so well with your needs. I have been diagnosed with that. While I don't think that diagnosis was accurate and my T agrees with me, we both agree that I'm probably somewhere on the mild end of the Autistic Spectrum.
This isn't about putting myself down. When I communicate with you I'm pulling from my insides the most honest and truest parts that are there and I feel you're doing the same and I value this all and you a lot. And I can't let myself think about the fact that other people read my posts but so be it.
Just to say that it's time to change the way I connect with you but I'm still here and I still care.
Rags
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I understand Rags. Please do what's best for you. I have appreciated all your support.
I hope I haven't overwhelmed you. I apologize if I have.
As far as my ex-boyfriend, that was a romantic relationship. I have no romantic feelings for anyone, but my fiance. But I have had friendships with all different kinds of people: young to old, all races and ethnicities, all ranges of intelligence, disabilties, life experiences. You may or may not be on the austic spectrum, idk. But that doesn't change that I value not only your support and perceptions, but you as a person. The diversity in life is what makes life beautiful. You were drawn to my thread for a reason, and for whatever reason whether it is known or a mystery, I'm grateful.
Please know that I am here for you as well.
I just wanted to add that I understand thinking and feelings in a different capacity. People with BPD are more sensitve and more reactive to pain. But because of this, we see the world differently, just as you do. But there's value in that. To be stuck in my emotions is unhealthy. To have someone offer a different perspective is only beneficial even if I don't agree. I hope no one, including yourself, ever judges oneself for their differences. No one is perfect, but we all have value. Not everyone will like us, but many people do (so long as you allow those people in your life). Please know that the only judgment I have of you is that you're a kind, caring person who I'm thankful has entered my life especially when I desperately need it. Thank you Rags!