Hi. So since as long as I remember, my mom has been telling me to go to a psychologist or someone because I'm not "normal". She says that I get sad easily, I try to avoid being with my family, and she tries to calm me down when I'm in the car, going somewhere, or in public because of my anxiety.

I get anxious for no reason. I get anxious whenever I go to starbucks, in-n-out burger, etc, even though I order the same thing all the time (it's probably the thought of interacting with a stranger), I get anxious because of things I can't control (arriving to school early/late, traffic, school bell is going to ring and I'm not done packing up, walking through the crowded hallway, asking my teachers for help whenever I don't understand a problem, etc) I'm determined to do something (like learning how to drive, cook, do the laundry, etc) but then I chicken out, making my family disappointed, and I get disappointed too (I'm 17, by the way).

My whole family looks up to me, I have friends, good grades (A's and B's), and I've never gotten in trouble (fights, detention, getting arrested, etc). When I had my first kiss at 14 years old, I got grounded because I didn't tell my mom, making me look like a bad daughter in the eyes of my family.

Sometimes I think my anxiety isn't normal and that I need help, but I'm scared that my family will see it as another flaw in my "perfection" and that causes more anxiety because I fear being judged by my family, friends, and classmates. I'm also used to this lifestyle because I've lived with this all my life, untreated. I think that if I get my anxiety taken away, an important part of me gets taken away too (like my arms or legs). What do I do? Should I pretend being normal or should I just deal with my family and seek help?