Thanks everyone. I had my session late yesterday. It was pretty exhausting, but we talked about this (and everything else).

He did a good job of clarifying. He does talk to another therapist regularly for supervision, and thinks she's a really good therapist. She's actually on the other side of the country, so no worries that I might accidentally bump into her one day. Though it does sound like he uses my real first name (which is a little weird), and he shared some of my writing with her (eek). He told me he didn't realize it would bother me, but asked if I would have given him permission if he had asked ahead of time, and I think I would have.

It was interesting, he said that 85% of what he talks to her about is the group that he runs, he only talks about individual clients when there's something he's... ummm, worried about? I don't remember if that's how he said it exactly. But he wanted me to know it's because he cares, and wants to be get all the info he can to help me, which felt good.

Anyway, I felt better about this when I was done. Still a little worried a few other things... not sure therapy IS actually going to ever be helpful (and it's so expensive... ) but this seems to be OK....

*thanks!*