((((((((((((((((((((Sweet)))))))))))))))))))) I am so sorry that you are feeling like life's punching bag right now. It seems like we can never have a single crisis, they always insist on coming with siblings.

I know you are a fellow Alanis fan, so I've been trying to think of a song that might help give us some perspective - but I've had some trouble with it. However, I DID come up with parts of 2 different songs (sorry they aren't from SFIJ):

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

AND

You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn

Ok, so maybe they are trite at the moment. But you can at least know that there is something to be learned here - even if you can't see it right now. AND you are definitely due some of "life helping you out." I hope it comes soon!