The problem is that you are looking at all the crap as the "highlights" instead of the crap it is. Oh Lord, now I'm beginning to sound like my T.

I am the last one to offer advise since I can't deal with my own issues.

But just keep posting and posting and posting. Even if no one responds. Keep posting...over and over and over. Whining, anger, tears it doesn't matter. You are among friends and it may help.