Well, it's an unrealistic goal for me. My life has even vastly improved personally and professionally this past year and I have lower self-esteem than I've ever had. I finally think I'm attractive for the first time in my life but I hate myself so much more. I'm even in a relationship and I think it's ultimately lowered my self esteem. He deserves someone perfect and I forever fall short…

Sorry I don't have anything encouraging to say. I fail again, huh?