Feeling mixed, processed a lot in the past week.

But the past 24 hours or so have been okay, even if there were some awkward moments in them.

To focus on the good for a change:

I got to spend time with a friend I hadn't seen in a long time, and it felt good to talk to them. I felt heard. I managed to hobble out to lunch with them and felt closer to human than I have for a while.

I spent some time with a different group of friends watching movies and being fed a home-cooked meal. No processing of heavy baggage, this was pure escapism and hanging out. Something I don't get enough of.

I got some bodywork done, and while I'm sore, very sore -- I think it may have realigned me and hopefully will improve mobility. I'll know in a few days.

I'm feeling very tired now, and in that headspace where I don't have energy to process any of the stuff going on in my life. Maybe that's what people would call "just coasting". And that's okay for today...

Being in this headspace is better than being in the bowels of depression, with how it pins me to the bed and covers me in a thick black blanket. I haven't been in this okay headspace in a while, but from experience know it's likely to only be a temporary break from the heaviness.