((((((((evildouble))))))))

Aside from the illegal part of this, there are a few things here that concern me and a red flag pops up!

First of all, since you are on meds for your illnesses, adding to the mix alcohol and drugs really put you into a position of overdosing. Not to mention the fact that alcohol and other drugs counteract some meds and either render them worthless, create a paradoxal effect (work the opposite of what they are intended for) or increase the effects of the medications.

The next thing that concerns me is that when drinking, the alcohol makes you less inhibited, less likely to think clearly and creates situations where you do things that you A. know are not right for you, B. could have horrible repercussions such as extreme illness or even death, C. put you in a position of being taken advantage of.

Is this a situation that you are socially doing these kinds of things? Or is it that you are self medicating because your prescribed meds are not helping in some way? Whatever the reason is for you doing this, I think a good long sit down with yourself and trying to discover what the problem is and finding ways to help yourself is in order. If it is a social thing, then maybe it's time to find a different group of friends? If it's a self medicating issue, then maybe it's time for more intensive looks at what and why you are doing this? Since I don't know you, it's hard for me to say.

I hope you will consider being more careful in the future. I would hate to think of you crossing a line that will bring danger to you in any way shape or form.

I send you prayers for strength and hope and peace. Please take good care of YOU!!!

*Gentle Hugs*
Jean