I have been on Seroquel for over a month now and have been having some serious cognitive issues. Primarily when I am making a concerted effort to think. Things like word recall, memory retrieval, and basic math problems have become a chore. I have had a hard time explaining the sensation I feel every time this happens, but it goes something like this. I attempt to say recall a conversation that a friend and I had within the week or say when trying to come up with a decent example for this post. I feel a pressure within my frontal lobes and it feels like a fog has set in. I can no longer think and I sit still until it passes and it invariably does until I attempt again to do something that requires cognition. I can hardly read anything because I forget what it is i read shortly after i'm done. My anger is even more explosive than it was before I was put on the medication, My emotions are completely blunted, my ability to hold a conversation is severely limited, as I said word recall becomes difficult. When I try to speak it feels as though the words ooze out of my mouth and it is hardly audible. Only on slight occasions am I able to perk up and show any other emotion than the flat affect I normally have. I have approached my psychiatrist and the suggestion for me was to at first simply stop the seroquel and start taking lithium. However, the first time I tried to Taper off of Seroquel I had a fit a rage at my Dad for absolutely no reason I couldn't focus on everything. I was having difficulty reading instructions to something and I became extremely frustrated and I let her know this. So she then decided to have me taper off the seroquel, using Zyprexa in a low dose to combat the obvious withdrawal symptoms, along with the lithium. Now I don't know if anyone can provide help for me, but I am wondering if the decision of my psychiatrist is a good one. I have been very hesitant with new medication primarily because every time I have taken new medication, I have declined in my mental state, become more depressed, the suicidal Ideation becomes more frequent. I now have more cognitive problems. I cannot read, write without incredible difficulty and those are somethings I do to cope with my depression. But I have a difficult time making sense of the information. I am frustrated, confused, depressed, apathetic. I have no energy left. I need help I would like to know if I am the only one with these side effects. Thank you.
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