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I'm so sorry you're having a hard time right now. Sometimes the ship just hits the sand, ya know? I, too, lost a very good friend not too long ago and my ex mil in one week's time. Somehow I made it through. I know you will, too. Make sure you get what you need during this time. Pretend it's a race you are running and remember to breath deep to keep up your oxygen supply. That may mean making time for yourself to refill your "gas tank."