Missing my T

I don't want to go to group today. I'm kinda tired of it. And I don't want to see the new T. I sent her a text yesterday morning, and I think it might have crossed a boundary because she didn't respond. I didn't say anything bad per se. I simply told her I wasn't the first to report my T, and I told her I need her to be 100% honest. I knew not to email. She doesn't think it's private enough to protect confidentiality. And I didn't want to call. Plus it wasn't an emergency. I just don't want to continue with her if I can't trust her.

I guess I'm depressed tonight because I don't feel like doing anything. I'm even irritated with my dogs I told my fiance to love them for me tonight because I can't.

I just am missing my T so much tonight. I want to look at a picture to remember what she looks like, but it will only make things worse. I can't read her emails or look at the books she had me buy. But I want her to still be with me somehow.