in a heated row about me 'comfort eating' (which is not true) my parents just told me i had gained weight and had horrible skin. criticism wrecks my confidence and i feel terrible. they have just completely demolished my self esteem, which i have worked so hard on building up.

now i want to cut myself. i don't want to eat again. i'm so triggered and upset, i can't believe they would say that to me, i've just come out of hospital and i'm fragile, plus i didn't get any exercise or healthy food in hospital for 3months, now i feel fat and ugly and horrendous.

maybe i should cancel my therapy appt today. i am obviously too ugly and disgusting to be seen anywhere. not to mention Easter is here and i have so many bad memories of being abused at Easter.

i'm crying and just a wreck.