depression.... once the panic settles my mind has to pay attentin to the pain I have been ignoring, so to speak, and once I can get that back managed... the depression, ever present, takes over my mind... while on my trip I lost a gold earring. I knew I was leaving something in the one room... but search ed and serached and couldnt notice it wasnt till that night that i realized I'd been weraring only one earring ... so my solid gold heart stud earring is gone. add that to the other stuff:
my yard hasnt been done in exactly one month and they are supposed to come at 10 day intervals... and Icant find hisnumber to call and cmplain others in the neighborhood are gonna complain... I had to return items due to poor product and they haven't reimbursed my shipping costs... and the co that has my wireless phone account didn't get the new upgrade program so now I hve to call them and straighten that out... if they ever answer the damn phone!

I am still tired from the trip. the anxiety. the triggers, the time with family...and their misunderstandings and stress (they are babysitting a parent with alzheimers who now won't eat much.) I am supposed to try another new med and I haven't lost the weight I gained and haven't gained the hair I lost... and the insurance co went and ordered a spcae for me at a pain clinic... where my pt says he disagrees with some of their methods (this would make me worse for a whiel, not help)

My dog needs grooming. I tried (should not have) to clip his nails and cut quick on one... end of trying to do that

once again i added one check in twice into the checkbook... why do I do that? I still haven't had nail care for myself in over a month... ugh and oh, that broken tooth? afer a mnth I got it fixed but he didn't readjust my jaw splint and Ihave been without one... increased pain

oh well.