I had to make supper for my kids. My little girl asked if I was going to eat with them. I had at first said no, but she looked kind of sad. So when it was ready, I grabbed another plate and sat with my kids. I ate, very little, but ate some. My bf had bought a strawberry shortcake for his year end golf BBQ. He left it here and forgot to take it with. So my kids asked if they could have some. I phoned my bf and he said go ahead, he forgot to bring it today anyway. So as stupid as I am, I had some too.
I ended up sending my kids to take the dog for a walk to give me time to "get rid" of it. I did. Now I am so angry at myself. Why did I even bother to eat anyway. All I did now was hurt myself even more. Raw, bleeding throat, and dont feel so good either. I took a whack of laxatives, just in case. I am sick of being such a complete [censored] up. Who cares anyway??? Really, who cares, I dont.

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