Yes, I definitely do obsess over it, and I am fascinated, and exhausted, and overwhelmed by it all. Although I must say that since the beginning of this year my obsessive thoughts have changed, and lessened. I have even willingly missed sessions and been relatively normal about it.
I'm assuming the change is because I'm feeling much more secure about my relationship with my T. We have been thru alot, as I've seen her for 5 years now, but only now have actually felt such a good shift.