Idk. I'm just scared to do something wrong. I really don't know what the boundaries are. She said to call her in an emergency before I act on my thoughts. But is that the only time to call? I can't write emails. But I really felt it was important to bring up my need for honesty.
Even all this makes me sad. I knew my ex-T's boundaries. And I knew how she would reach if I pushed one. I miss that. I miss the known.
Maybe I didn't do anything wrong with ex-T, but I feel more hypervigilant? with this new T's boundaries. This is one of the parts of relationships I struggle with. I try so hard to be "perfect" to make sure they like me, and if the relationship grows, for them to not to leave.
I hope you all are right. I just don't want to mess this up from the start.
__________________
"Odium became your opium..." ~Epica
|