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Old Apr 02, 2015, 02:42 PM
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Originally Posted by quasicrystalline View Post
WOW. I was thinking all of my problems were potentially all anxiety, too. It's weird we all jump to the same conclusions. If you were seeing your doctor for seven years, I doubt they misdiagnosed you. For me, I have to remember that I was hospitalized for mania, and during that time, I had little anxiety and actually denied ever having anxiety when the doctor asked me about it. So strange. I've always been super anxious.

One thought I've heard is that BPD is often diagnosed as bipolar because of insurance reasons. BPD is primarily treated with some kind of talk therapy, but bipolar is medication based and insurance would rather pay for medication than other kinds of therapy. Another is that it's gotten trendy now that celebrities have announced they have bipolar.

But I wouldn't jump on it. Some articles say it's underdiagnosed, too. For a while, I was just fishing for any reason I could find to prove I didn't have it.

Another thing. My therapist told me it's rare to never doubt the disorder at some point. Going through periods of denial is almost more evidence we have it.
It's really interesting how we both think/thought it was all just anxiety related!

My denial also led me to researching dissosociation (sp) as something I had instead of psychosis, but after reading people's experiences with it, I don't think that's what I had. Even talked to my husband about it and he said, on the outside, I was totally NOT in touch with reality! It wasn't just a detachment.
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