Yes, I definitely obsess about it - to different degrees and about different things depending on what'd going on in my life. Like currenly T will be leaving for three weeks so now I'm feeling that loss coming up and the neediness for her, while when she's here and I get steady weekly appointments that dependency isn't so great. If I'm in a really depressed place I obsess about what I need to be saying and rehearse what I need to be doing and working at to get out of that place. So it varies depending on where I'm at with things.