So, I go in to see my doc today and got new doses and mg for my mini pharmacy that I seemed to have collected lately. Everything from that visit was fine. Afterwards, I go to see my gyno...

[ trigger ]Then, I get all felt up with cold, clammy, and obtrusive hands just to find out that I have a freaking lump... [ /trigger ]

I was already anxious and near panic attack earlier... I had a heart rate of 130 upon arrival, before I even took my adderall, but she opted out of giving me any straight up anxiety meds and just bumped my Trazadone from 150mg to 450mg. Along with adding a few new ones. I'm sure my pharmacy thinks I'm nuts. Hopefully, it actually works...

I'm so stressed out, panicked, and sad. I just want to go to sleep, but apparently I'm not capable of it at the time.

Sorry for venting... I'm just upset and frustrated.