I am so f***ing frustrated. When I came into the appointment I was feeling very good. I told you that I had 5 rough days but yesterday and today have been good. Well the appointment is over and I feel like ****. Very low. See no reason to do anything. What is wrong with my head? Less than 2 hours ago you asked me what I thought about life and I said hopeful or something like that. Not now. How can that change so quickly?

Fell asleep typing the above... I'm now waiting on my NA meeting to start but I'm on the verge of tears. I have so many questions. Is this just a lack of sleep? Is it because I have to wait 2 weeks to see you? Is it because I am thinking about my mom's death again? Not only do I get sad on the 25th of March, the day she died but also on Good Friday, the day she died, and then her birthday is the 4th. Is it just depression?

You said to text you if I start crying and getting depressed for several days. You will call in more meds... I'm worried about taking more Welbutron because you said that I am already on a high dose of that and the Cymbalta.

I gotta go.