Hey couch!! I enjoyed reading all the comments about the pharmaceuticals. I'm so thankful that I was able to get off the AD's that I was on; while initially they saved my life and I am grateful for that, as I started getting healthier mentally, I didn't like how they made me feel robotic or zombified or whatever.

And an update on my mini-freak-out last night over that video, I talked myself through it today w/out calling t. Told myself basically, that I needed to "walk my talk" and prove to myself that I'm ready to be done w/therapy. When I first got to work I was still all up in my head and just out of it, couldn't focus, kept having to ask people to repeat themselves, and wanted to talk to t in the worst way. That was when I told myself "Art, why don't you work your own way out of this and prove to yourself that you're done with therapy." So I proceeded to describe the video I watched to 3 of my friends, and after talking it 3 times, I finally got it out of my head enough to get MYSELF outta my head, and was back to normal by sometime after lunch, and I did it w/out calling t!

While it really threw me for a loop last night, I'm glad for it now, because it gave me the opportunity to work through it w/out t. I will talk about it with her next week anyway, because my reaction was so strong. But I feel good that I handled it for the time being w/out her help.