Dear T,

I already sent you 3 emails and I wrote you I wasn't going to send anymore while I'm with my family. So I have to write here instead. There is always so much to talk about with you. I miss our 90 minute sessions once a week.
I feel a little bit like I'm failing. I can't feel your hand when you take it away like you want me to. I still need your touch. I'm sorry I'm so challenging but I can't help the way I feel. It helps that you understand about my wanting. I'm frustrated because I don't want to feel like this. I know it's not about you so I feel sad. I wish you had a magic wand. I hope I'll be distracted and enjoy myself with all the kids. One initiates hugs goodnight and that makes me feel great. The others let me hug them but they never say I love you back.