This is my second go around with psych meds... I've always been adhd, but the first time I was in denial about being BP. I was on lithium and zoloft first and hated it. The zoloft made me hypomanic while the lithium made me a zombie... it was the strangest feeling. Then, I got seroquel and Cymbalta and had a similar reaction but not as dramatic, but I was still crawling out of my skin bc of the serotonin. After that, they threw a cocktail of various meds at me and I eventually decided medication wasn't the route for me.

Recently, I had an episode that scared me and my friend forced me out of my house (I hadn't gotten outside in like 3 weeks, didn't eat or bathe) and told me either I was being dropped off at the psych ward or I was going to call her pdoc. Either way she was taking me to one of the two. I was terrified of inpatient treatment for various reasons, so I chose the latter.

I sat in the lobby sobbing and freaking people out for a few hours due to me not having an appointment until a sweet older lady said that I needed to be seen next and had everyone in the room on my side.

Quite honestly, the next few hours are a blur. I know the pdoc got all my previous medical records from my previous pdoc and quickly and efficiently decided that my previous treatments were the worst possible combinations for me and prescribed me with a bunch of new meds I wasn't familiar with. I still have a hard time knowing which does what, given that I have multiple ones that treat the same problems.

But, I walked out of the office with 8 scripts and completely felt nuts. I was so paranoid to drop off the scripts at the pharmacy bc I knew that they were juding me.

So, the long answer is... Yes, I started 8 different meds at the same exact time... a few of them I was ramping up to higher doses and a couple were just prescribed as PRN. I think my pdoc just wanted to throw whatever at me and see what stuck bc I had such bad adverse effects in the past.