When I'm in therapy I have a lot of conversations in my head with therapist a of a the a moment and I'm constantly low level thinking of therapist. This time around I'm anxious about making it work so I'm constantly trying to put it into action and milk each session for knights. I think I'm trying to force things. I'm also fascinated by the process. And between sessions I try to figure out the opposite of what T said so I can get both sides. Finally, this time I find myself anxious that my therapy will be diverted into issues T thinks are important and not my goals. One thing I decided today is to put limits on my PC time so therapy isn't my main interest. That would be a little too meta for me.