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Originally Posted by quasicrystalline
I've actually heard of people actively seeking out a bipolar diagnosis. If you have the family history or really, really strong symptoms, and want to get to the bottom of it, that's one thing, but wanting to be bipolar boggles me.  When I began seeing a pdoc last year, I was hoping they'd tell me I didn't have it and that my therapist was wrong for suspecting it. At least during some periods, I'm relieved to have an answer to all of my problems, but having this illness can be so overwhelming... |
Yeah, I absolutely do not understand how people seek a BP dx out and romanticize the idea of this specific illness.. you can still be a creative genius with or without this specific dx. It gets under my skin bc it makes me feel like I have to live this day in and day out. I have ruined relationships, lost jobs, isolated, denied dx, and ultimately constantly question my ability to be a wonderful mom.
Then, I have the bone wrenching fear that my sweet, innocent child may have to go through the same struggle. It's not a romantic ideology or something that makes your awkward quirks turn into being a creative genius. Half the time it's debilitating and hard to find inner peace while accepting it.