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Originally Posted by Brown Owl
Was she clarifying to make exactly sure that you were referring to the feelings you'd discussed three weeks ago and not other feelings? If not that is incomprehensible how she could have forgotten. it must have taken a lot of courage and strength to keep going with her, does she realise this? I think the late night texts and constantly changing the time is questionable. I felt emotion whenever I received a communication from my T, I would have found this hard. My ex-T, for all her faults never ever changed the time or missed a session.
Have you decided whether or not to keep going with your T?
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I think she wants me to actually say the words again. As if it wasn't painful enough the first time. I think she gets some pleasure out of hearing me say the words. She has never actually said it must be difficult for me to say this, only that she really felt for me the last few weeks because I couldn't talk.
I really feel confused over the texts, it's really increased in the last few weeks too, I am conflicted because I want contact with her , my feelings are in turmoil, but I don't want to have to keep changing my times. I am wondering if she has even considered how this must be for me to have her text after I disclosed my feelings.
I haven't decided on staying with her or leaving, I am conflicted about this too because she has been really good for me this year and everyone has noticed the changes in me.. despite her flaws she has been really good.