You're right. Maybe the group dynamic will help balance everything. I'm terrified of the group....literally. She said it consists of 10-14 people And I thought I was doing good finally being able to talk in my current group which has 3 other people. (I need a DBT group to learn how to cope with a DBT group ) But it's different. I need something different. The traditional methods have helped, but I think I've outgrown them. But maybe group will give me a healthy distance with my T, to see her outside her office and interacting with others. And to watch how she does interact with others. That right there would show me how authentic she is. Maybe this is all growing pains?

I don't know what is going on with my fiance's job. I (yes I) am setting up an appointment with his boss for next week to get a new contract ironed out. Then I would have money to T shop. But DBT Ts are scarce. I'm already traveling 40miles to see this one and I'm paying out-of-pocket! But!!! I can contact the president of BPD Global. I have contacted her in the past both at BPD Global and when she worked at NAMI. BPD Global is for family/friends of people with BPD. Hmmm. Maybe I should go to their free monthly group now that I have my own transportation?